“Not everyone gets the same version of me. One person might tell you I'm an amazing beautiful soul. Another person will say I'm a cold-hearted asshole. Believe them both, I act accordingly.”
I've been waking up too early recently and this is only once in a blue moon for me...
This morning was a total different cause I received one bad news -
I thought I wanted to spend my time browsing on the internet when I have nothing left to do (despite studying for my next paper). This was when I accidentally saw the word "finale" from one of the glee site.
I thought it was ordinary but it's not! Glee is coming to its end...
And I barely couldn't accept it...
I was listening to Pure imagination that time and it added the blue mood of mine...
Well, I've spent my last 2 years dedicated for Glee not minding any curses or mockeries I've got for being a total Gleek. I'm a bit disappointed but at least those 2 years were the most auspicious for me. I know there's possibility for a next season but it will not going to be the same. The kids are graduating from high school and the casts are going to change.... I know the kids very well, it's like they have been a nice good friends for me especially the end of last year when I have the chance to chat with some of them - via Tweeter and when my siblings and I were spending most of our holidays singing their songs.(Should I address them as kids?? Aren't they 17???)
and now...
All I have to do is to wait for the next last episode and change myself for the better... To view it from the bright side and accept them as they are.
I'm listening to their song - For good.
It's a total wicked song and it twice the gloomy mood inside this heart.
The lyric touched me:
Glee Cast – For Good Lyrics Lea as Elphaba and Chris as Glinda
Elphaba: I’m limited– Just look at me. I’m limited, And just look at you, You can do all I couldn’t do, Glinda. So now it’s up to you– For both of us. Now it’s up to you.
Glinda: I’ve heard it said That people come Into our lives For a reason Bringing something We must learn. And we are led To those who help us Most to grow, If we let them, And we help them in return. Well, I don’t know If I believe that’s true, But I know I’m who I am today, Because I knew you.
Like a comet pulled from orbit As it passes a sun. Like a stream that meets a boulder Halfway through the wood. Who can say If I’ve been changed for the better? But because I knew you I have been changed for good.
Elphaba: It well may be That we will never meet again In this lifetime, So let me say before we part– So much of me Is made of what I learned from you, You’ll be with me Like a handprint on my heart. And now whatever way our stories end, I know you have re-written mine By being my friend.
Like a ship blown from its mooring By a wind off the sea. Like a seed dropped by a sky bird In a distant wood. Who can say If I’ve been changed for the better? But because I knew you–
Glinda: Because I knew you–
Both: I have been changed for good.
Elphaba: And just to clear the air I ask forgiveness For the things I’ve done You blame me for.
Glinda: But then, I guess We know there’s blame to share–
Both: And none of it seems to matter anymore!
Glinda: Like a comet pulled from orbit- Elphaba: Like a ship blown from its mooring- Glinda: As it passes a sun- Elphaba: By a wind off the sea- Glinda: Like a stream that meets a boulder- Elphaba: Like a seed dropped by a bird in the wood- Glinda: Halfway through the wood.
Both: Who can say if I’ve been Changed for the better? I do believe I have been Changed for the better.
Glinda: And because I knew you–
Elphaba: Because I knew you–
Both: Because I knew you, I have been changed for good.
Can't you see how they have sung a very beautiful farewell song for their fans? Are they supposed to say goodbye?
I know I met them unpurposely without knowing how good they are that they've sung almost all beautiful Broadway songs. They brought everything I believe the truth but still people didn't accept them. Although I know they're closing their story, but everything they brought to me are so precious they make it so hard to forget.
I've just completed downloading one of The Warblers' song - What kind of fool.
I wondered why I couldn't find the song last month. Well this resolves the answer. It has to be one of their goodbye songs for me. Where can I always be tomorrow without the casts?? Where can I learn how to deal with this hypocrite life if not from them?
I always believe that they have dropped in to my life for a reason.