Greetings.

It's finally 2020 and a new decade has commenced. I'm currently using my free time to write because I needed these to be heard without judgement. My social circle is very small, even talking in it seems a hazard. People have always assumed that my words are argumentative when I was just being expressive. In this era, it is explicitly rare to find someone who will actually be there and listen to you when you're actually just trying to be yourself. So here I am, writing for that mean. 

The past decade has been challenging. I finally received my scroll of degree after all the dog days. I did went back to my Alma mater as a master trainer back in 2016 but I have no fond memories to be recollected there (other than reminiscing back the one I have with my 12 other siblings). The ambiance did track me back to what has happened particularly in certain places especially when the same thing happened back at the same exact time but nothing much has changed compared to the last time I set my foot there except for the nearest town development in process. I didn't really expect to go back after just 3 years of graduating but fate don't know me like it does now, don't it?

2014 was the year I started working as an educator. It was funny considering all the years I was trained to be one, I still found myself apathetic to the real situation (probably because of my work environment). I kept telling myself lies for  a year thinking that I won't let myself be kept in contempt here for more than 2 years. Then came 2015, the most significant year I could probably live in. I'm positively definite that, what has lead me to stand here today, started in 2015. Everything turned upside down and I got addicted to working. I was miserable back then but ludicrously I was happy with what have I gotten into - I didn't even count my days for holidays! This kept going for a year (specifically August 2016 - been writing about this since day one).

I received my first award in the education industry in 2016. I was awarded excellency that year and I quite didn't expect all the accolades to keep coming in up until last year (received my ninth award already). It wasn't actually that easy to achieve them all. My dedication is still being questioned even after all the sacrifices I've made but I refuse to let myself deal with the negativity of society. If so, I'm no different than them. I'm not sure why smart shaming is still a choice in our community but that really cleared up to the reason why certain people can't progress. An advise I kept telling myself is not to sink to that level.

I'm still here, at the same old school. This might probably be the last year I'm going to teach here since it's really hard to grow here intellectually - even one of my colleagues confessed the same thing. I didn't mind the money. I just want to be happy. I'm willing to let go of the idea that money can provide me that (it does not!). There are lots of opportunities out there I've missed without knowing and spending another decade here is idiotic. 

So here goes 2020,

another decade to savor, to relish and to live for.

May this be another significant decade for us all to reminisce. 

Maybe this decade holds something for as all, God only knows.