“Not everyone gets the same version of me. One person might tell you I'm an amazing beautiful soul. Another person will say I'm a cold-hearted asshole. Believe them both, I act accordingly.”
This entry is a reminder for me. To start thinking wisely when things get so complicated and it nearly costs me my relationship. I know I did wrong and I can say nothing about it. It wasn't my intention to risk my relationship. I love mine now and i look forward to carry it to my own grave. I'm pathetic. I was so childish I couldn't manage my own desire when it comes to risky situation. I'm ashamed not only to myself but to my significant other. I was able to give good advice to people but when it comes to listening it to my own, I couldn't even follow a single shit. Above all, I want this relationship to happen. I'll strive for it. I want it to be my last and I will do everything to make it stay.