Another brick in the wall

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This entry is a reminder for me. To start thinking wisely when things get so complicated and it nearly costs me my relationship. I know I did wrong and I can say nothing about it. It wasn't my intention to risk my relationship. I love mine now and i look forward to carry it to my own grave. I'm pathetic. I was so childish I couldn't manage my own desire when it comes to risky situation. I'm ashamed not only to myself but to my significant other. I was able to give good advice to people but when it comes to listening it to my own, I couldn't even follow a single shit. Above all, I want this relationship to happen. I'll strive for it. I want it to be my last and I will do everything to make it stay. 
Location: Bingkor, Keningau, Sabah, Malaysia

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