I have low self esteem. I'm writing this cause it needed to be heard. My will to solve every mistakes I've done is in grave I don't think I can handle much. I keep thinking the imminent answer should have provided me peace but that's too selfish (still it came by quite for a few times here in my brain). I needed to forget all these and by that it meant solve shits all by myself. The society thoughts of me makes me weak and I'm getting more sick having them included in the process. Some, I should say is kind enough to know what I need but somehow others just point their fingers to me telling me to shut it all. That sends me straight to the darkest part of my heart I think I should just...

I'm in pain. Physically? Doesn't matter to me but somehow the sadness, it's eating my inside.