HomesickEric

It's raining. Thunder strikes here and there. I'm inside my room listening to this song and it saddens me more. I'm not quite in a good shape recently. I'm pressured too much, it's aching inside of me.  I kept asking to myself if this will all worth it. I've got nothing left but to hold on. Somehow August wave of goodbye is just around the corner hoping the next 2 months won't cost me longer. I will follow you into the dark Love of mine, some day you will die But I'll be close behind I'll follow you into the dark No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of a spark If Heaven and Hell decide That they both are satisfied Illuminate the "No"'s on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you When your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark In Catholic school as vicious as Roman rule I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black And I held my tongue...

I lost my watch due to my own stupidity. People might assume it to be something just worldly but it actually means a lot to me. I cherish every sentimental values I had with it for the past 5 months and accepting it to be lost because of my own fault seems overwhelming. I literally cried. I could accept if it was my phone, but this? This is something much more worth it. Despite how much it was bought for, the memories I had with it costs better price than my life....

I love slow dancing. I know a step or two but dealing them publicly would be embarrassing ( except when I'm drunk ). I'm a fine gentleman ( ehem~ ). I love the idea of two people hugging and dawdling through slow sentimental songs enjoying every bits of that moment and listening to Sam Cooke's songs made me sway back in this room of mine alone. It all started last holiday when my brother recommended to sing this song: I know nothing about his songs neither I know he existed. But since my siblings grew up listening to these kind of rhythms, we found ourselves fell in love with it. Listening to these kind builds the imagination of people slow dancing in crowd with all the vintage themes surrounding them. Now that I'm downloading all his numbers, I'm gonna memorize all his lyrics for the sake of next karaoke retro moment with le family. LOL Here's one as a must : If I go, a million miles away I'd write a letter, each and everyday ...

I haven't been blogging since... I don't even remember when was the last time I posted an entry. It's not that I have been busy I have such a lot of things to be remarked here, I do. I only found it's helpful to share them with my significant other better. Now that I have to crave this on my online sketch wall, this is going to be something I should do. My last holidays have seemingly came to its end, I became a little bit homesick by the time I arrived here in Tawau. The only words I keep telling to myself is to be patient. There's another few months here before I bid all those farewell and I couldn't hope but to meet that. I'm tired and it all ends today ( realized this when I was in the wagon - that's what they call the transportation mean ). As usual, my anxiety became worse when it comes to going back here. There's so much to think about on my way back. Thoughts keep lingering here and there but they all ended with a short sigh. I know I...