HomesickEric

I was wandering through my ex-junior's blog when suddenly it reminded me of my secondary school life. Yeah, I was totally lost back then. I didn't know what to become... I didn't have anyone to look upon on and say to myself 'I want to be like him'... But still, I managed to be comfortable with that. Life changes as the way it is and I'll accept everything - that was actually what I thought would've ease this mind with the fears flinging around to the future. I admired my brother but I thought I didn't actually have to be like him. Somehow school grade wasn't that important - people can be successful even without achieving the best in school. Realizing that I have keen observation to my friends' future plan, I accumulated them all just in case I would have to take one as a back up plan. I was never too judgmental compared to my life now (except that I didn't say it out loud). My surrounding keeps on confusing me when there's a lot to...

My last teaching training has ended yesterday and I'm glad I've been through all those days I actually think was killing me. I don't know why but I missed my first class ( of my first teaching practical ) more. Too bad I didn't have any pictures with them. And now that I'll be back to SK Ranggu next July, it doesn't actually really bother me much to be sad. I will still be here for the next 7 to 8 more months and the chances to meet the school communities will always be there. Anyway, seizing the moments of the last 3 months, nothing costed me much..  Mentor, Edna and me Year 4 Iltizam together with their Science and English teacher I'm glad I've actually given the pupils something precious. It's not easy to bear people's mind when it comes to direct learning process. That's the longest period of my teaching training. The thoughts of providing knowledge to those kids wasn't really that easy. It has to come with great mind a...

and suddenly it falls unto me. I know this is all I get back in return of what I did and I was ready. I meant no harm, there's no intention at all. There's that one side of me saying how I deserve all the consequences. I'm ready... I'm ready... Now that I've learned my lesson, I didn't regret being frank nor true. The faults are still there but as long as the feeling stays, that's all I'm hoping for. Not one day goes by that I don't think about you. I started my days ended my nights, having you in my eyes dreaming about you. It all soothes my heart. Please stay there

I was watching Smash whilst marking my pupils' paper as it reminded me a lot about my previous term. I liked how I managed my time, my concern towards my pupils, my certainty of being able to get good marks on my papers etc etc. It was all a bliss to have listened all the songs that could remind you about your histories. There's nothing much to write about. My 6th term was a total change of life. I'm still in the aftershock of everything but currently happy with it. The dramas I found in the casts taught me a lot about my life. I should have made them simpler earlier. Now that I'm holding myself for a better future, I hope this will going to be the last for me. Let's just make this clear, although time has undergone so fast now, I thought I needed time to stay still - sitting around in the corner of my room trying to reflect back what have  I learned from all the shits I'm sucking in my life... but actually the better choice I have for myself is to just go...