HomesickEric

The fact that I'm suffering headache is so killing me now. I didn't actually remember anything today ( though I've  sit my first paper: English Teaching Methodology For Younger Learners ). I've been striving too much my body can't handle shits. I'm looking forward to my holidays but my next paper is coming up so better put all my attention towards that. My influenza is at its peak ( I don't say? )... Haven't felt better since the past few weeks and now this fever is seemingly coming. Barely fighting with myself! Now the moon is actually very bright tonight. Some say it's the Hunter's moon and also others called it Harvest moon ( I don't actually know why ) but I just love how right it is. It's killing me to barely gaze it from here and the most killing part is knowing that there's only 1 full moon phase for my next holiday ( Only be willing to approve the November's ). Crap! Enjoying shits like this should be better felt if...

Oh jadi sekarang ko marah sebab saya tidak wish you for your birthday? You didn't even wish mine last March why do I have to bother now? I decided to move on without you jadi I am the one who supposed to storm out. This isn't my fault and you're now too late! P/s: Fairly fantasizing about this. 

Waiting for a cup of tea before I start revising this early morning. I've spent almost all my day sleeping and doing nothing I rather be concentrating on my paper next Monday. BTW, I watched VHS they said the scariest movie ever. It was fine. I don't believe in ghost so I treasure every ghost movies as if I can sense the feeling of being scared and all that eerie shits. Now VHS was creepy that I should say. It freaked the hell out of me and some scenes were just too gross. I like it though. Just the one of a white man's movie I found out real creepy. Bravo! and just to mention, it wasn't that scary (brag and bragging).    

Listening to Taru's inside of me once again never failed to make me missed my practicum days so much. I have always spent my night on the veranda either smoking, drinking beverages I made for the night or even calling home and my ehem ehem (though I have little bit of a relationship problem right now). I missed my kids... Not just because I treat them like my own children but I missed the good old days when I don't have to push myself thinking stuffs that may explode the tip of my head. I'm overwhelmed by the fact that examination is just around the corner - that is why I spent all days and night playing DoTa thinking that this can escape me from the reality. There's this one thing about my hospitality here that I'm not satisfied. We've been asked to move into our old hostel and I was about to enjoy the lasts of the days here in my oldest block. Our institute's administration is so confusing with all lecturers having their own thought and students b...

Listening to Try by Ashley Brook has made me realize that I’m getting closer to the end. My friend said I’m only fond to bluesy and sentimental song and I admitted that: I’m only good in reflecting myself if sad song comes to my hearing (or more to heart). Realizing that I’ve spent almost 4 years of my life here is not that long (I thought) and now I still have this whole year to suffer this would might be a miracle that I can really survive. Now that I have limited time yet I barely plan to enjoy everything left. This is surely a surprise for I’m not that kind of person. I accept being parted with something (or someone) I labeled as a drop in place (posted about this before). I know I’m getting more and more distracted by my life event recently but that wasn’t really a burden. I judged people lesser realizing that I don’t want to be judged. Although some of my friends might think as if my world is revolving around them, I cherish every little bit of my own here. Having another yea...

Good day, Looks like I have only the mood to write something when it comes to great changes in my life. Yes, indeed... Called Telupid District officer yesterday just to ask where would my brother be teaching and eventually realized there would be such a drift in my life.. I mean my family's life. Knowing one of my family is having his own career means we have stepped into a further level on the stairs of life.... This is a leap.. A big leap upon our history and dreams. I've never imagined this thing is going to be faster than I thought. I haven't prepared myself into changes that will surely affect my life. I'm proud of my brother... Not just because he has been sacrificing to much for his youngsters but also with the fact that he has been a perfect role model as an older brother. I never should have try to chase him (in which I don't). He just made me realize that shits we've always dreamed of when we were still kids have not lost its hope. Some people may h...

Hello, next post for today since I've told myself that I have lots of thing to be written down... Just in case someone read this, I enjoyed how much I've been spreading my individualism publicly.. My weeks before were seemingly disastrous... I have to pass up 3 different projects at the same time and still I have 4 more to be finished (which is not mine) for the veteran teachers. I didn't put a lot of my effort to those since I have my brother back at home. He graduated last Monday (I guess) and still I should thank him for helping. We chatted yesterday and he told me his posting is yet to be known today. I shall call home by that (probably by this night). Examination is around the corner and amazingly I've wasted such a lot of my time playing DoTa... I guess I haven't prepared myself for another stressful things just yet. I watched Smash again and noticed a new song I missed to memorize... yeah this is me.. When I'm fond to a music I'll start memoriz...

Good day my dearest readers... I actually have a lot to write about but the sickness of this fingers non-stop typing words since the last few weeks has made me feel irritated.. It feels like suffering Parkinson or stuff... But anyway, I'd like to copy and paste my tarot reading I've made online recently... Although I don't believe this kinda stuff but these are really something.. So here it goes... Card 1  (Justice) :  How you feel about yourself now   » You are feeling that things will go your way, you believe in fairness and justice in all things. If you are considering partnership issues, personal or professional, dealings will go well. Perhaps you are about to sign a contract or legal document, this will be beneficial to you. If someone has done wrong to you it will be put right and you will feel justice has been done. Card 2  (The Emperor) :  What you most want at this moment   » The cards suggest that what you most...

Good day! It's been long since my last post and I'm really looking forward to blogging even though there's no much time to do so. All I'm saying is just... Yesterday we have this event kinda look alike like Running Man but I won't say it so... The challenges are too easy ( I guess ). Everyone were thinking about each and other's safety and that won't be anything much of a challenges... Still, I was called last day by my ex mentor from my previous school.. My two best teacher friends called and were asking about this and that. I miss the school... I miss how much I've spent my time there... and that won't be any problem at all.. I guess I'll be seeing them sooner.. and that should end my post... P/s: I'm glad I was missed.. :P