HomesickEric

Well hello little world, It's 06:09 Pm of 28 February 2012 and I ought to say that this was so not my day to conquer. I’ve been disdained by some of my peer pressures pep talk. Well some are intended literally and others are not. My mind has been suppressed by my emotion these recent days and all that’s left for me is to let it be. I got to say that I’m not really comfortable with this but I guess life’s just it. Although sports day is just around the corner and realizing I’m one of the committee members, that pep talk I’m talking about has been a very heavy load to carry. Consequently, all I have done this evening was sit and watch. I’m not into talking bad things about others: that I have to say. I should have realized earlier that I have to get rid of myself from people who like to talk negative things about each other and then live on popularity by spreading those downgrading rumours. It’s hard to believe that I’m all by myself today because of that reason. I don’t really c...

I've got so much things to write but I just couldn't surf through the internet in my hostel. But Recently I've gotten into slight infatuation over someone. Things might be over a few days after.. I hope so...

It's been 3 days and we haven't made conversation. Saying 'eh' and 'bah' is not actually it. We glanced a lot but it didn't actually help. WHY AM I SO SPEECHLESS WHEN I MEET YOU? Please say something!

Stress has made me uncomfortable all day. But at least I've got one thing to be proud of. I don't really get what I want, but I'm hoping for betterment ... I'm getting insecure and more emotional these recent days. I just hope that this semester will end up faster. There's too much to think about. My remorse is choosing to be a class monitor for this term. What can I do then? I just hope everything is going to be okay... I hope I'll manage. Then again... Why would I be treated with unfaithfulness? Am I really not worth to be loved? Why should I experience broken heart every time I put my trust and loyalty to someone? Why do I end up in the same dead end? WHY?... My dearest nightingale, would you provide me answers?

And finally he's here... The long day I've been waiting for, Mr. Friday. I couldn't imagine meeting you this early but it's been long since the last day I saw your face. I really missed you a lot. And even though I can only give you a gaze, I don't really mind for I longed you too much. Let's not say a word. Let's just stay silent.. And please... Come again next week XP Today's evening was such interesting.... :)

Yes! Tomorrow's Friday and I'm really looking forward to it. Cepatlah balik! Weekends are always so fun and enjoyable ( though I spent them mostly by sleeping... ) :P But not for this time actually... I've planned a lot for my weekends and I hope everything is going to be fine and pleasurable . But I'm still looking forward to tomorrow! You Coming back! You Coming back ! Now if ya'll excuse me I have laboratory reports to finish.

I'm attracted to real-time facts and jokes on the internet since they existed... I'll post some of them to convey my sarcasm.. and some are just for fun... Actually I wanted to post these in my Facebook wall.. But since I don't want people to judge me a lot, I rather share them here... I am so not into lectures recently... Cause I can barely watch everything in front.... So I'll just blog on.... and die laughing on funny facts meme from the Fuuuuucomic..

Baru siap mengurus beberapa perkara.. Esok aku perlu jumpa beberapa lecturer and I might have to skip classes ... Woo~ Atas bebanan yang telah terkumpul aku telah merubah menjadi Jackass di kelas pagi ini... I thought I wanted to let them know how tiresome is that urus ini dan itu but then it turns out being so awkward.. I hated to see my own friends hated me... Menyesal yang terlampau aku sekarang... I'm sorry kepada kawan-kawan aku yang dikasihi... Please understand my situation ... Ada satu lagi masalah peribadi aku yang terbesar dan harus diurus ASAP tapi I just don't have enough strength to move it on .... I'm tired of crying over the same reason again and again... P/s: Cepatla cuti...

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Being single but still have the chance to celebrate Valentine's Day is so super awesome. I've received such a very interesting present just now and thanks to someone . :D My present as given, is actually not that lovely as it should be ( still have problems with choosing one.. D: ) but I gotta say... I must do something to correct it. LOL Pitty those people who had said " Valentine's day is nothing cause you should celebrate your relationship each and every days... " Well, I don't have one.. but still I cherish how special the day is... LOL HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY TO ALL OF YOU :)

10 Pm and I still haven't slept yet. Gosh why am I pushing myself so hard thinking about complicated things? I have to wake up early tomorrow cause there's this program I have to attend. Haven't called home about this maybe tomorrow I will. I really want to post something about tomorrow's Valentine's day but I just couldn't. All I can think now is about seeing everyone's faces tomorrow greeting Happy Valentine's day to each other and I'll stay perfectly still on the corner of the room like this: Screw that! Anyway, I've watched a few more religious based movies recently and one of them is about exorcism. Now it reminded me of a late hobby my brother and I used to have. We used to conduct researches so much about demonology and I've printed some of the articles found. My brother has also bought us some books about that and one of them consists of real stories told by several priests ( who remains nameless ). Exorcism, as what have we research...

Tomorrow is Valentine's day and I don't really give much damn about it: I can't celebrate it on my own. Last year I received Cheeses of Cheese Garden and thanks to Someone for the gift :) LOL BTW, if I can't celebrate V's day this year, I can still help others theirs, right? :P Anyway, something really started off my morning with a big smile :) It's hard to attend class without such a smile... and those palm sign as a hi high 5 resemble :) Why are you so CUTE??!

Sometimes I learn better when I saw quotes from the internet and I said to myself " So that what it's all about! ". Although Sir Abraham Lincoln would have said if they can not be trusted as their origin is always doubted, I happened to appreciate the messages they carry. Here are some of them: I'm so tired of being left behind and staying in the same place with pessimists and jar headed people - See! that's the kind of thinking I'm trying to avoid. Sigh~

Noticed how I made changes upon my Blog template? As promised to myself... Manipulating HTML code has been easier for me nowadays... Thanks to my sister anyway for teaching me how to do so... I still can't do changing my footer's position I wish she's here to help... :) *Saya ubah base code template yang beliau syorkan saya guna dari dulu tapi oleh kerana dulu susah mimang saya x faham langsung kod komputer lol (how she know my taste :) Thank you Mi Sister! Miss them siblings :) BTW, I would like to share you a beautiful lyric which will make you calm yourself... It's by Lee Dewyze entitled Weightless: Standing at the door like a thousand times before Right here on the edge of something beautiful and new You help me to let go, find some room to breathe Close your eyes and hold your breathe I promise you will see angels and wings Balloons have strings but you and I don't need anything We'll just go to a place that no one knows My feet can barely touch the ground ...

There's a strong feeling in me saying that I should be home by now... Why? Because something might have changed back there. My younger sister will not be around the house anymore just like the golden days of the past cause she's furthering her studies. I wish for synchronized holidays here after for I really will be going to miss her everytime I'm home but never get to see her face. It's a relief that my brother will be in Sabah (hopefully permanent) after this term cause home will be brighter if the family is fully gathered. My course, Y U NO end faster?! P/s: Noticed how I have short entries recently...

Well well... This would be the first entry on my spontaneous Thursday. I haven't actually noticed anything important about this Blogger event but I just don't have anything to write on particularly. Here goes something... Ever decide to give your heart to a girl and she decides she wants someone else's? - Dan Sato , 2012 "From birth, man carries the weight of gravity on his shoulders. He is bolted to earth. But man has only to sink beneath the surface and he is free." - Jacques Yves Cousteau There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear. - 1 John 4:18 Never look down on anybody unless you're helping him up . So people you've got the message? LOL These pictures came out of nowhere - actually I found them from my Google + page. Real interesting facts... right??

Damn, I missed the game because of the meeting with the director this evening! Being a class monitor is actually very tiresome. I have fulfilled my days with works and assignments and works etc etc... Tambahan lagi kerja mengurus lawatan (Ugh, I should never let them choose me!)... There are lots of things I should put in mind everyday plus practicum will be as nearly as next month... Help me Dear God... I'm so dissapointed with myself right now! Not because that I can't manage my works of course that's the least easiest way I can do but I missed the game.... The truly one thing I'm looking forward to watch this evening. Sigh~

Shallom Habrem! I'm thinking about changing my blog's template into another simpler version but it is so frustrating to do so without the help of my sister... I should have changed it earlier back at home! Sigh~ BTW, lots and lots of things happened this week and there's yet more obstacles to come. I guess life's just it! I don't really have that mood to write all about it cause I don't want my blog to be full of negativity. Last day was.. shall I say an interesting day?! Well some of you do know why... Let's just keep it our secret! xp

Due to votes I have posted last year, ring does actually tell us more than being faithful... It works for me, really it does. I stay sober since the day I'm wearing mine ( thanks to my sister for taking care of it while I forgot it back at home last month XD ). I know it leads to misconception but not for me. Wearing a ring resembles a lot to certain people about the fact that he is marrying somebody. I know I shouldn't doubt myself but you should do more actions to yourself too. Be faithful! If it's not for me then be faithful to the one whom you chose! It hurts to see a ring on your crush's finger but if it's only an accessory, what's the use of wearing one? I don't deserve to be loved, but if you've chosen somebody better, treat him nicely. Do to him the best you should... and please don't let him feel the same feeling as I'm having right now... God, please help me... Maybe the best chance is to let you go and just continue with my search of ...

Took me a while to realize its true meaning... This is always a true question I have asked myself everyday. Found it on my Google + profile ... Well, I've been existing in this world for 20+ something years now and I have to admit that I'm dying inside ( not tragically but I still am ). I need to live my days suppressing my existence. BTW, Chinese New Year has finally ended and I'm back here in my temporary home. It's starting February today and I have to plan the month systematically for I have to undergo my 1st phase practicum next month. The school is not just a stone throw away so I guess I need to arrange my budget wisely :( Miss everyone ( including the fishes ) back home anyway :D Can't wait for the next holiday!