HomesickEric

It's Thursday night and I have nothing much to do. I've finished preparing for tomorrow's lesson except that I have to print some of them. I'm actually bored having to be free for only a night. It's been a few weeks from the past holidays and now I'm counting my days for the next holidays. Keep missing home lately since I didn't  have the time to meet my family. It's full moon and I will usually post poetic stuffs (like I did back in 2011). I didn't actually know why my routines met its drastic changes. Probably because I lost the track of being who I am, what I want and etc etc. I thought i would accept this as a transition but no. I'm tired of hanging on with barely one hand. Been posting ridiculous and depressing stuffs lately realized that. I just need a break. The moon is so red tonight and it's the sign of the last day in February - and welcome to the most meaningful month in my life. Being in March means there's another 8 months b...

It's been a few fine days despite I'm fighting myself with the disease I suffered since last week. I was diagnosed to have my tonsillitis again but crap that I know how it made me last year, this is surely not it. Feeling much better now after swallowing a sum of medical collections. I sweat too much recently though  I guess that's good to remove all the toxins inside of me. There's another loads of works I need to fulfill and the trauma that I'll be observed next week is haunting me. I don't have enough time when I think I procrastinate too much. This night is still on it. I need to rest but tomorrow's a big day for me - for that school actually. It's the first time I'll be participating in a real regional school's sport day. I thought I hated sport's day ever since I entered primary school but it's not that I'm participating. Getting back late tomorrow and continue doing my job. I really hope there's a transition between being ...

  Dirly - Sampai penghujung dunia   Cinta ini menggelisahkan aku Membuat aku gila Andai kita terpisah Mati rasa-rasaku...   Cinta ini membodohkan aku Menutup akal sehatku Andai engkau tak di sisi Risau isi jiwaku   * Selama kau belum jadi Milikku yang utuh Aku akan slalu milikimu Selama bumi masih kan terus berputar Aku akan selalu menujumu Walau ke ujung dunia   Cinta ini membodohkan aku Menutup akal sehatku Andai kita terpisah Mati rasa-rasaku...   Sometimes songs can be a great way to express your feeling. I'm currently listening to this song and realized how much it means for me. It's not that worst and jiwang karat actually but I just happen to appreciate how much it conveys the meaning of being seperated miles away having that everyday's doubt to exist. The chorus would be imposible, but I'll venture the world to make shits come true. LOL Just enjoy the song would you?

So I went for dinner just now and realized there's a slight scent of being home. Suddenly it came to me that all the past 4 years ( in that exactly same moment ), I know I'll still be home and be insecure about going back here. It was a short and vivid feeling of homesickness. For all those years I've left and enjoy the same period of this cause of holidays, it would be my very first week going back home after that New Year's celebration. I remembered I was counting on the days just because I'm sick of calling home every seconds of every night. Sigh~ when I finally managed myself accepting the fact that this place is my temporary home, there's still another few months to go through. I didn't actually want to recall what have I undergone here but this memory won't stop lingering telling me what have I done in this place. It's not like all the memories are revolving around me anymore ( knowing that I'll be having amnesia next year ). I just want t...

Hello and good day to you all, It's Valentine's day and I never expect I'll be celebrating it this year. There's a room full of chocolates and cakes and roses inside of me even though I can't really be there with my special one. It has always been that way but no sweat, I can afford another year. The main point is anyway... Every now and then , I was actually preparing myself to listen to this: Take a close read to the lyric: "S.A.D (Single Awareness Day)" I feel that I should tell ya A warning to prepare you About this song, it's when love goes wrong, but I'll carry on I gotta keep it real Of how I really feel About this day, I don't want it to stay, so please go away [PRE-CHORUS] When cupid aimed his arrow at me He missed by a 100,000 feet [CHORUS] This ain't a song about love, it's the actually opposite I'm thinkin' of I don't care about the cards, or candy hearts, oh no no no I'll tell yo...

Hello fellas... Couldn't help but to write a new post today.. I've got a lot of words to be written if it wasn't because of my Twitter statuses. I often expressed there too much lately and I'm disgusted with my childish posts - and I know it's going to continue. I didn't know why I felt that to myself lately. It's been 3 weeks now I'm undergoing my teaching practical and life has been fine. I'm getting better socializing with all the teachers especially when I know there's a lot of them coming from my hometown - Ranau. Well at least I'm not all alone. Although I'm still peer pressured by my enthusiastic lone practicum members, I figured out I should handle my shits alone too. Being independent is my mojo. Anyway, my ambition can bee seen clearly by now. My future plans have been consolidated by this thought of mine - what I want to do, how to achieve them, when is the right time etc etc. I haven't been dreaming shits since I wa...